Saturday, November 22, 2003

Needless to say, this blog is obsolete. My bout with b2 is over and now I completely love it. Having/sharing a domain is great and I no longer need this service. It's been great while it lasted and I thank Pitas. Within a couple of months this site should be gone. I direct your attention to my blog and Livejournal for my daily rants and raves.

Monday, May 5, 2003

The Low-Fidelity All-Star:
(Click for image.)
You are the Low-Fidelity All-Star. You were born
with your cool, and it's totally natural. You
run the gamut from Hipster Supreme (only they
can ingest as much coffee as you) to the geeky
hipster (Mario Kart, anyone?).

What Kind of Hipster Are You?
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Hell, yeah. XD
What would you expect from the Coffee Queen (ie., yours truly)? Except ignore the cigarette. Smoking is bad for you. Don't do it. I said so. XPPP And I do vainly brush my hair more than once a day, and I do make myself look quite presentable... most of the time. XD

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

I think it's odd that not many people really know who I am. I don't know if anyone knows what I mean, but it seems like everyone has a different perception of me. Most people think because of my academic gungho-ness, I'm this aloof, intellectually immersed ornament for placing on a pedestal and the answer to scholarly questions. Some people have extraordinarily high expectations of me and are ready to pounce at every mistake. When I reflect on how people treat me, I realize that I'm not anything they think. Sure, I may care a lot about my academics, and of course, I always try to do my best in whatever task it is I'm handling, but I don't think they realize what kind of burden it is for me. My inherent drive for academics makes me want to succeed, but it's a double-edged sword. The higher I achieve, the more people want me to achieve. Thus, I'm hypnotized into believing in this supreme obligation to meet those expectations. I don't mind it much, but sometimes I feel these deep emotions of frustration where I don't know what I'm doing anything for. It's not a problem because I know I'm doing it for myself and it is one of the best things I can do to help myself. Someone told me I was a "real person." Many of my actions are a result of pragmatic logic and reason. This is what people see in me. They don't know that I am, as I wrote earlier, more of a material girl than they realize. I can be self-concious and I care about what people think of me. I care about how other people act and what image they produce. I believe that a person's character is displayed in what manner they present themselves to the public. These are the guidelines of society that are fixed for me. There are some things I can't bring myself to change because they can't be changed.

But despite all of that, I like who I am. People can have whatever perceptions about me they please.

Friday, April 18, 2003

I started a Livejournal! It took me the longest time to figure out what username I wanted, and most of my top choices were already taken. ¬¬ Now I just have to figure out how to customize it and tailor it to my every wish. Nyahahaha. >D

I've been a really big slacker lately because of the lack of heavy schoolwork. And I forgot to blog that I was inducted into the National Honour Society on Monday! ^-^V Yay-ness. And as usual, life is really boring. I notice a lot of the time I'm not really thinking about anything although I should probably at least be reviewing for my biology test in my head. Deep thoughts only come to me on weekends, eh? =/

Tuesday, April 15, 2003

The major w00tage-ness of the domain has been consuming most of my online time. Therefore, I must plug it. XD Click, nyu? Waai, it's still very much under construction, though, and I'm trying desperately to find a good blogging program compatible with my poor little WS_FTP LE. ;_; So far, b2 is looking like the most viable option.

My birthday was low-key, nee. I got clothes (XD;;;) and my CDs are coming... slowly but surely. Min, the darling that she is, burned me copies of Brown Eyes vol.2 (Reason 4 Breathing?), S.E.S. vol.3, and Kang Ta vol.2 (Pine Tree). *squeal* (Myoubi-chan! The pictures... the pictures, I say! *_*)

I didn't do as well as I'd hoped on my Huckleberry Finn test (I got a 90%), but we went over the test today and we wheedled him (our English teacher) into tweaking the amount of credit we got, so I ended up bumping my test score up 4%. XD Yatta ne~

I just finished reading Mars this last weekend. It was sooo~ good... the plot was neat but predictable, but it made up for itself by being entertaining and sweet. Aagh! Why can't guys like Rei exist here? *pulls hair out* I think my next blog layout may in fact be a Mars one... because the art is so gorgeous... T_T

Tuesday, April 8, 2003

We got the domain! W00t! I've been busy all afternoon trying to get everything set up. It's different because I've never done this kind of stuff before, but it's exciting! XD Check it! It's not quite a finished product yet, though. Soon, once I get everything set up, ER will either move to g-w.net or go bye-bye, and Ayame will have a new blog. ^__^

Sunday, April 6, 2003

My birthday is coming up! I think that my parents have kind of given up on surprises for presents as I've grown up. When I was a tot, they could get me stuff like Barbies and art sets, but they've pretty much given up trying to figure me out, now. >D So my dad says he'd buy me four CDs for my birthday. (Jeez, YesAsia always seems to cash in on my holidays... ¬¬) I know for sure I'm going to get Ayu's new "Rainbow" album, but I'm torn between the other three. I've been having a Shinhwa obsession lately, and I've never bought their albums before. I like what I hear from "Wedding", and I like R&B well enough, but the recommendations for it and "Perfect Man" have been about 50/50 split. I'll have you know "Perfect Man" is one of my favourite Shinhwa songs, if not the favourite (and the M/V is very yummy :9). So, get both. Easy, enough, right? Not. I've wanted to get the last S.E.S. album, "Friend" since it's commemorative of their last days together, but I also want to get "A Letter From Greenland" because, believe it or not, this diehard S.E.S. fan only has "Choose my life - U." *sigh* Someone help me decide!

The day after my birthday, I'm going to be inducted into our local chapter of the National Honour Society. Very nice present, hmm? ^___^V And as proof of my scholarly overachieving skills, I'm off to do the PowerPoint for our *cough* "group" research project...

Wednesday, April 2, 2003

Jacob-san says I'm a material girl; you know, I've never really thought that about myself. I've always tried to think about more than, well, materialistic characteristics, but I have noticed some aspects of myself that say "material girl." Maybe I should get one of those "MTRL GIRL" t-shirts, nyu?

Schoolwork's been relatively light, lately, and for that I'm glad. I've been neglecting drawing a lot, and I'm only now starting to return to my literary hobbies. I have a couple of ideas for (don't laugh) novels that I want to do. The first one that I've already started is about a girl that has been raised in an extremely wealthy family, gets tired of life and her society, and decides to run away from home. Equipped with only a small amount of money, she tries to survive on her own, and acquires "companions" on the way. I don't think it's going to be quite as plot-driven as it is character style-driven. I love creating characters and analyzing their psyche. The second idea is a futuristic, sort-of sci-fi story. It's set in a future time when humans have figured out the key to biologically engineering people for eternal life. The problem is, once the scientists have realized how horrible their discovery is, and how it disrupts the equilibrium of life, the damage is already done. A group (or person, I haven't decided yet) of assassins are hired to kill the people who have been engineered for eternal life once they've reached the expected lifespan. You can see where the conflicts arise from there. I think they're good ideas, but the ideas are only as good as the writing, right? We'll see where I get from here. Ganbatte ne~ Aside from the biology case study I have to do, I have a free three-day weekend, so I'll have lots of "me" time, which has been such a rarity this year. I'm also playing Secret of Mana... and I'm actually figuring it out! Yatta! (Dan-san, you should be proud!)

Monday, March 31, 2003

We got second place at the chamber music competition on Saturday, trailing behind none other than the Mirror Quartet. I guess I agree because I don't think we played our absolute best that day. We <3 them, anyway; Kyle (their cellist) came up to us afterwards and said, "Hey, second place is way sexier than first!" Heh.

The Stanford summer school thing didn't work out; it was a program geared towards talent, low-income kids, so I don't think I qualified in the financial area... But today I got a letter from   guess where  . (Fill in the blank... don't peek now!) Cambridge University. London. For their summer pre-college [heh. ->] programme. I feel so special! *girlish squeal* And it sounds like a ton of fun, but the tuition for about 3 weeks is something like $5,000, not including airfare to England. Meep. o.O; But I guess feeling special is good for now. ^^;

Thursday, March 27, 2003

I can be so ditzy/quirky. I was really perky during orchestra and started randomly speaking in a British accent and then proceeding to ask Kira "Was ist das?" instead of using English. Heh. Also, I was joking around with Martin about how I had to know kung fu because I'm Chinese and we started doing Matrix moves (you know, the lean-back bullet dodging one) and I smacked my hand on the table behind me. Yay.

Talked to Cole today on IM. It's kind of nice to converse with people you haven't talked to/seen in a long while. Good times.

The All-American Rejects are cool. Anyone have any mp3s they'd like to share with me...? >D

Wednesday, March 26, 2003

I was sick all through my spring break. It's karma. I was telling my dad on the Friday before spring break that I hadn't been sick for three years and I started coming down with something on Saturday. The worst of the flu was over in about three days, but I still have trace symptoms even now.

So this is the new version of Evanescent Rhapsody that I've been working on. Very much toned down as far as features. As you may notice (if you've been here before), there is an absence of test results, archives, and an extensive profile, among other things. The domain is in the process, so this will be my transition layout. Whether or not I want to start over with a new blog (name) is still tentative, and I am also considering starting a LiveJournal, just for fun. Meanwhile, I leave you with a rather serene "Moonlit Rhapsody."

Telemarketers are annoying. One just called and asked for Jonathon. After I told her she probably had the wrong number, she confirmed that this was the number she was trying to call. Nevertheless, she proceeded to ask for Jonathon. I told her no, and she asked if I was the lady of the house. I told her no, she is out right now and then she inquired to my ability to make decisions for the household. Of course, I said no. "'Kay. I'll call back later." Excuse me? No chance in hell I'm going to pick up the phone, then. What I really wanted to ask was, "Are you dissipated? You really shouldn't be dissipated on the job." Or something along the lines of, "I'm sorry, but are you deaf? There's nothing wrong with being deaf, don't be afraid to admit it, but I don't think it's in anyone's best interest to talk to a deaf person."

Here I say my goodbyes to the iGoddess forums. Tia has relinquished her domain, zantetsu.org, where the forums were hosted, and it's gone. I don't know if Riven, her co-admin, will continue the community on her domain, kurayami.net, but I know that the absence of iG will be a hole in my daily Internet routine. I'm saddened by its end, but I understand Tia's situation and wish her the best. Meanwhile, the Unladylike forums are experiencing technical difficulties. Kudos to everyone trying to get it back together. Yes, my online social life is deteriorating, but that's life.